CHAPTER TWENTY THREE
Good People
I sat next to the Alice as I wait to be called into the doctor’s office. Judging from the way Alice looked at me, I don’t think I am doing a good job nursing my fear. I looked away from her to try and school my facial expression. Mr K always told me back when I was still a master’s student to always find a way hide my feelings. He said If I keep wearing my feelings on my face like a makeup, people are going to use that against me.
But obviously, I am failing badly at it. No amount of pep talk from Alice and Frances has been able to keep calm me down.
“Bewaji Bendel!” The nurse called out to me.
“Yes” I answered and gently stood from the chair.
“I know this is something that has to do with you but I have to be in here with you… to report back” Alice muttered
“I understand” I replied in a defeated voice. If I am been honest with myself, I am glad she is with me. This is not something I should be doing alone, Kylian should be by my side but now, I know I am in this marriage alone. So I am glad she is with me
Breathing in and out loudly, I opened the door
“Hello Bewa” The doctor greeted me with a smile on her face the moment I showed my face in the room
“Good afternoon” I replied as I walked to the chair in front of her table with Alice behind me
“Have your seat” We obliged and I watch her reading through the file in front of her. Minutes later, she looked up
“It is as I thought” she started
Oh Fuck!
“You have Polycystic ovary Syndrome” She continued “It is a condition where you release immature ova and immature ova cannot be fertilized, I am so sorry”
I just nodded, I didn’t know what to say
“So what is the course of treatment” Alice asked on my behalf
“POS is mostly caused by a combination of genetic, health and lifestyle factors but I think yours is caused by hormonal imbalance”
“You think?” I asked
“Your hormones are off the charts and not in sync, so I am going to place you on medication to balance out your hormones”
“But what if this was not caused by hormonal imbalance, I mean you said it is mostly called by genetics”
“I know what I said but there is no way your body can produce mature eggs when your body hormones are not functioning at the level it is supposed to function at” she explained “Even if it is caused by genetics, your body can’t carry a baby to term with the level of hormone your body is secreting”
“It is my body, I am just asking questions to understand my body better” I said when I saw that she was getting agitated
“I understand and of course, I am not ruling genetics out completely. When your hormones balances it and your body is still producing immature eggs, then you will be treated for POS but until, I don’t want to give you unnecessary medication when you can be cured simply by correcting your hormones” She clarified further
“Okay, I will do whatever you want me to do”
Sitting at waiting room waiting for Alice to get my drugs, I mediate on all my life choices. Life can be unfair sometimes. When I was little and in church, the pastor always say good things happen to good people
That is a big fucking lie…. I paid my tithes, I may lie but never a lie that would hurt someone else, I have never killed, I may be jealous of someone else’s success but never to the extent of wishing the other person to fail, I kept myself and never fornicated….. not that regret that action because the wait was worth it but my point is that I did everything I was supposed to do to be a good person
I am a good person and I can’t even have my own babies naturally. Babies people have back home so easily that they abort them while some even throw them away after the babies are given birth to but I have to be prodded and drugged to have my own
The saying should not be good things always happen to good people but good things sometimes happen to good people. Fuck! This can destroy my marriage. I am pretty sure that when Fazya hears this, she would regret marrying me to her son
What the fuck am I going to do if I am not cured?
“Bewa!” I looked at to Alice walking towards me with a white small nylon which she handed to me the moment she got to me
“The dosages on are the medicine packs”
“Thank you” I appreciated her
“Let go”
“Alice” I called her and she looked back at me “I know you are supposed to report back to Melissa about my result but please can you let me be the one to tell Kylian myself” I asked her politely
“What?”
“This is my life, my marriage and I should be the one telling my husband that I might not be giving him any child anytime soon”
“That was not what the doctor said in here” she tried to correct me
“But it can come to that and coming from me, there is hope…. I can’t say the same when he hears the news from Melissa”
“Ahhh….” She grunted “I can’t…”
“Just till tomorrow…. please” I urged her. She looked reluctant and I understand where she is coming. She may be close to Kylian but she might be fired if she refused to do what she was asked to do
“Fine but only till tomorrow” she agreed “Now, let go”
“I will like to be alone for a while, gather my thought” I said
“I can’t let you…”
“I promise I won’t do anything crazy, I promise, Alice, I need this please”
“Okay, when you are done, call me. Jude and I will come to you”
“Thank you”
I handed the bag of drugs back to her and walked out of the hospital
TO BE CONTINUED NEXT SATURDAY, 9.00PM WAT
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